Yeah.  I’m blah again.  I know what your thinking… it’s the whole non-internet at home thing that has me blah, right?  The truth is… I’ve been blah since before I lost ‘net.  I think I’m still swinging through my February depression… and still feeling blah about it.

The bad thing… is lately I’ve been getting pissed off over stuff that would never bother me before.  I got an e-mail from someone asking me to change something on their MySpace… and I got really fucking pissed.  In fact, I was pissed for a good day over it.  It was really a simple background change… nothing to get upset over and nothing to sweat… but in the moment I was pissed.  I’ve accepted my role as a MySpace guru for my friends… afterall I am all white and nerdy and stuff… so I don’t know why I got so pissed off about it.  Then I did this other thing that I thought was the coolest thing in the world.  I passed it around… and no one acknowledged its existence.  In fact… the lack of feedback still irks me a little bit… but originally it made me furious.

So now I have to wonder about my anger management digression.  I have been known to have a temper that will flash quicker than the atomic bomb over Nagasaki… but I think I’ve gotten better over the last two years or so.  Sure I still have my moments of road rage.  Sure I still have my fantasies of smashing the laptops of e-mail bosses.  Sure I still on occasion launch my nextel in a Hail Mary Joe Namath re-enactment aimed at the head of whoever has just breached my ambient stupidity barrier.  The thing is… lately it has been those closest to me that have been pissing me off the most.  I might possibly need to go to an anger management refresher.

Anger management is a really interesting class.  You get to sit in a circle and the lead guy makes everyone state the things that make you angry.  What’s funny is everyone talks about it so calmly… or was I the only idiot who kicked over my chair to prove how much I HATE when they give me Hazlenut instead of French Vanilla in my ice coffee?  They teach you breathing techniques and how to let things slide and how its all small stuff and not to sweat it and all that other junk.  One thing I truly found helpful was the whole concept of taking your anger out in a controlled environment.

So I think that’s what one of my problems has been.  I don’t have a controlled environment anymore.  The batting cages I used to go to are still closed… and I found out today they may not re-open.  To trek into Chelsea… and being surrounded by Yuppie scum… well that’s enough for me to go at it all on its own… never mind everything else.

So that’s where I’m at in my mind about my anger issues.  This is just a reminder that the mind is a terrible thing to taste.

On a really bright note… even no ‘net cannot stop the juggernaut tomorrow of Cereal Wednesday!!!