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Dawg, I feel I have no adequate words for you… I hate that this day 2 years ago is the way I was “introduced” to you and your beautiful son. I hate that you have had to live a single day without him. I hate that there has to be any such thing as a childless father.

I will be thinking of you all day.


comment by Jane  on  06/21  at  12:10 AM

Hugs…

No words are going to make it better, or easier, or anything.  It just is...and it sucks.  Parents aren’t supposed to bury their children, it goes against everything. 

I think you are still a father, I don’t think you ever lose that title, I hope not ...you’ll forever be DJ’s daddy. 

Hugs many times over.


comment by Fantastagirl  on  06/21  at  12:14 AM

Sweet, sweet Dawg.  Happy Father’s Day.


comment by abbagirl74  on  06/21  at  12:19 AM

As a father, I can only imagine the agony of your loss. I have but one child—now a young adult—and to lose her would be heartbreaking beyond belief.

Treasure the memories of your beautiful son.

I wish you peace and comfort.


comment by SwanShadow  on  06/21  at  12:21 AM

smiley smiley

Take care, Dawg…


comment by Stephanie  on  06/21  at  12:21 AM

There’s nothing I can say. Nothing. I may have a Xanax and a vodka in your honor. I don’t know what else to do or say. Except life is really the shits sometimes. And it’s just frigging unfair.


comment by Kim  on  06/21  at  12:24 AM

For me, the second year was harder than the first. The third year had it’s good times and bad times. I still struggle with the death of my sister. Sometimes I still cry. I see my mom and dad struggle with there grief as well. We all deal with grief differently, and yet I think we can related to each other.

I think of you often. I think of you not just on this day, but many times throughout the year. I often wonder how you are doing. But today, I will especially be thinking of what you have lost, and how unfair and unkind the world can be.


comment by Lynda  on  06/21  at  12:30 AM

*Here from Kim’s blog* Just want you to know that someone from Oregon is thinking about you and sending you a big hug. I’m truly sorry you’re having to live your life without your son.
*HUGS*


comment by Beautiful Mess  on  06/21  at  12:43 AM

I think no one has the right to tell anyone else that their grieving has gone too long.

August 11 will be 4 years since my sister died. I’ve had amazing and wonderful things happen since then. But I miss her.

You honor DJ’s memory everyday.


comment by Liz  on  06/21  at  12:44 AM
Avitable

I love you, man.


comment by Avitable  on  06/21  at  12:54 AM

My heart’s with you today, man.


comment by Anissa  on  06/21  at  12:57 AM

Sending you all my love. I’ll be thinking of you today. XO


comment by Finn  on  06/21  at  01:07 AM

You are still a dad...always.  My heart and many many prayers are with you today.

You are loved, and you and DJ are always in my heart.


comment by Tug  on  06/21  at  01:30 AM

blessings to you


comment by flutter  on  06/21  at  01:42 AM
Greeneyezz

I’m thinking of you. 

~ZZ

“The soul that can speak through the eyes, can also kiss with a gaze.”
~Gustav Adolfo Becquer


comment by Greeneyezz  on  06/21  at  01:45 AM
B.E. Earl

I’ll be thinking about you and the Puppy Monster today.  So sorry for your pain.


comment by B.E. Earl  on  06/21  at  02:03 AM
Winter

Oh, Dawg. There are no words. But I’m sending you hugs.


comment by Winter  on  06/21  at  02:41 AM

I am terribly, terribly sorry for the loss of your boy. XXX


comment by Selma  on  06/21  at  02:48 AM

I can’t believe, though I knów it, that it has been two years already…

* BIG FAT HUGE SMOOCH *


comment by DutchBitch  on  06/21  at  03:14 AM

My thoughts are with you on this day. God Bless.


comment by Bittersweet Confusion  on  06/21  at  03:23 AM

there are no words (that i have heard) that help~
i haven’t lost a child (i wasn’t given one to begin with) but i have lost 2 husbands
and the pain and the fog never go away
just sometimes fade a little

bless you and if i had a xanax i would take it with you, but my thoughts are with you

it has to suck big time to fall on father’s day

i wish i could wave a magic wand and make us all feel better


comment by ms snarky nice bitch  on  06/21  at  03:40 AM

I’ll thinking about you often today.


comment by Dan  on  06/21  at  03:56 AM

Eish… that post brought me to my knees emotionally.  I know I’ve been complaining about being weepy lately but I don’t know anyone who wouldn’t feel completely hearbroken for you reading that.


comment by Breigh  on  06/21  at  05:28 AM

Two years ago I found the blog world through a friend of mine. I was surfing on the net one night when I couldn’t sleep and came across your blog. I wanted you to know that many times over these two years I’ve thought of you and wondered how you were doing.
I just wanted you to know that...and know you will be in my thoughts today.
hugs,
dawn


comment by Dawn  on  06/21  at  07:34 AM

...Thinking of you, and yours today.  You are right, you never stop being a father - no matter what happens.


comment by Kyra  on  06/21  at  07:58 AM

You’re in my thoughts, Dawg. May his memory continue to be a blessing…

*hugs*


comment by shiny  on  06/21  at  08:14 AM

We’ve all got your back dude, even when it seems like we’re all distracted by other things. Your loss has never left my mind.
Here’s to Xanax and vodka.


comment by moosh in indy.  on  06/21  at  08:19 AM

I’m so very sorry.  You are in my thoughts.  xo


comment by Marinka  on  06/21  at  08:27 AM

Nothing I can say to make this better.
But you’re in my thoughts today.


comment by Nat  on  06/21  at  08:31 AM

Dawg, I met you at the Hardrock back in early April. I had no idea that this tragedy had befallen you. As a father of 3 myself, my deepest sympathies. May peace find its way to your heart today.


comment by Whitenoise  on  06/21  at  08:32 AM
Sodapop

Thinking of you today, my friend.  There are no words.  Know that you are loved and many of us are sending you that love from across the country. smiley smiley

Great love and great achievement involve great risk ~ Dalai Lama


comment by Sodapop  on  06/21  at  08:58 AM

Thinking about you today, Dawg, and about others like you. 

I dread this day, too, but for an entirely opposite reason.  I’m fatherless and I miss him greatly.

I can’t claim to understand, but I am sorry for your loss, felt exponentially today.


comment by Shelli  on  06/21  at  08:58 AM

*hugs* I will be thinking about you today.
xoxo


comment by Sarcastica  on  06/21  at  09:01 AM

I have written and deleted this comment four times.  Nothing I say comes close to expressing what I am trying to express. 

There are no words to say how much I hate that you know such devestation.

Thinking of you and your Puppy Monster…


comment by hello haha narf  on  06/21  at  09:02 AM

Dawg,
Any child is lucky if he or she has a father that loves them, treasures them and spends quality time with them.  It sounds like you were one of those fathers.  This made your child very blessed.  Some children do not experience this if they live for 80 years.  God bless you for being one of THOSE fathers.  I hope you find comfort in the fact that you will be with your son once again.

BTW your story has made me remember what this day is really about. The kids were fighting about 30 mins ago and to be honest it was getting on my nerves. But reading this post made me look at things differently.  I am sure I am not the only one smile

My thoughts are with you today.


comment by Jennifer Ford Berry  on  06/21  at  09:10 AM
SecondHand Karl

Lots of love, dude. My heart is with you today.


comment by SecondHand Karl  on  06/21  at  09:57 AM

Nothing but love for you… smiley smiley smiley


comment by Sybil Law  on  06/21  at  10:15 AM
Poppy

Thank you for letting me be here with you today. 

I will pour your Vodka, just say the word.

You are a great dad.  Not just to the furry ones, to the humans too.

I don’t know what to say about your grief, but whatever you feel about DJ, that day, what could have been, what was, is valid to feel.  You never need to try to feel anything else.  No one can tell you how long to mourn.

I love you with all my <3 and am here for you today and always.


comment by Poppy  on  06/21  at  10:19 AM

With you.


comment by maggie, dammit  on  06/21  at  10:21 AM

Happy father’s day to an amazing father.  We will never forget puppy monster and know that you have all of our love today.


comment by perksofbeingme  on  06/21  at  10:34 AM

I was just separated from my son for five months, and thinking of DJ and Bug and Madaline and Damien, and the other lost children of the people I know and the people I feel like I know kept things in perspective.  But I did gain a whole new kind of empathy for parents who have lost a child.

My thoughts are with you and DJ’s loved ones every day, but especially with you, today.  It may not be a “Happy” Father’s Day, but it is still a day to honor the father you are.


comment by Angel  on  06/21  at  10:35 AM

Dawg,

I don’t know what I expected to find when I came here today - but it wasn’t this.

This is the most you have ever said publicly about that day and the only time you have ever left comments open - not counting the Hiatus when I doubt you had enough in you to even think about closing comments.

Thank you for letting us all in a little bit today.

There are a lot of us out here who knew this day was coming and we waited for it with you, braced ourselves for you, whether you knew it or not.

We love you.  I love you.  And we love DJ for you and for all of him that you shared with us.

I have no problem speaking for all of us - and you know who we are - when I tell you that we will never, ever let you be alone in this.

Love you,

Britt


comment by Miss Britt  on  06/21  at  11:23 AM

Dawg, we love you, man.  Don’t ever forget it…


comment by Kris  on  06/21  at  11:26 AM

We are thinking of you, my friend.  And we love you.


comment by Brad  on  06/21  at  11:38 AM

You are in my thoughts and prayers on this Father’s Day.


comment by Barry Couto  on  06/21  at  12:00 PM

There are really no words except Happy Fathers Day to a father who loves his son fiercely


comment by Rachael  on  06/21  at  12:06 PM
Hilly

Dawg,

You are an amazing man and my heart is with you today and pretty much always.  I’ve got nothing but love, compassion and a shoulder any time you need it.

Happy Father’s Day.


comment by Hilly  on  06/21  at  12:28 PM

You are in our thoughts and prayers today, we lost our own son, Joseph, 4 years ago.

Take care

Love Neil and Rachael Salmon


comment by Neil and Rachael  on  06/21  at  01:51 PM

As so many have said, there really aren’t words. I’m thinking of you today.


comment by Cap  on  06/21  at  04:18 PM

I have no words that seem appropriate or that haven’t already been said.

*hugs*


comment by Daduck  on  06/21  at  06:03 PM

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