…And the afflicted thou wilt save…
- 2 Samuel 22:28

Things are afoot at the Circle K my friends… things are afoot.

Hesitation and contemplation are not my strongest traits when things go squirrelly.  I’ve never hesitated to smash headfirst though a moshpit crowd for the unconscious in the middle of it.  I’ve never hesitated to crawl through glass into the open window of the overturned car.  I’ve never hesitated to accidentally open a locked door when tying my shoelace because the person on the other side was unable to do so.  I’ve never hesitated to push the laws of physics on bending turns in top heavy trucks when the distance is greater than it should be if the city would only invest in a real CAD system.  More importantly, I’ve never hesitated to offer assistance whether it was needed… or not… in all walks of life.

Until now.

My lack of movement is really of my own doing because in posting the Alligator River Story this comment from Miss Britt, “What’s interesting about all of this is that in a less than ideal situation, you often have to choose which value means the most to you- to prioritize”, has given me pause to where exactly my priorities are since the situation is the furthest thing from ideal than is imaginable.

The fact is, the situation would not be occurring had people listened to me.  I am sought out on a daily basis for advice and counsel from a variety of people.  Today alone I received two phone calls and an e-mail for industry advice from people in 3 different states.  I offered my advice based on past business practices and cite a number of references as well as play the “what if” scenario and how options will disappear and be replaced by sometimes less appealing alternatives.  Offering advice is not foreign to me, it has become part of the job.

My friends also ask for advice or my opinion on matters at hand.  For them I do the same thing, offer my advice on my past personal experiences and cite a number of examples before playing the “what if” scenarios.  I will admit, that recently when I did this at no time did I play the “What if you purposely lie about where your going, get followed, and caught with another guy?” because my underlying advice has always been to “be honest.” Am I accountable for those who ask for advice but then fail to listen to it?  Am I accountable for the fact that my piece of advice to the “other” person in this was, “Let her go,” but they did not adhere to it either?

So things are afoot… and while I have not been contacted directly about it… the events were purposely made known to me.  Whereas previously I would have immediately picked up the phone to try and heal whatever damage had been done… because ultimately I do feel accountable for it even though others would not view me as accountable… instead I have paused.  I have waited for my phone to ring, but it hasn’t, so I am stuck in a place I am unaccustomed to.  I have become what I despise the most.  I am Ivan.

While some people insist I look for and instigate drama, and others yet will insist I cannot save the world… I believe in neither hypothesis but prefer to maintain my faith that the drama finds me and all I need to do is to save the cheerleader.  If it worked for Hiro, it should work for me too, right?

But in the end the cheerleader will need to want to be saved… and maybe for once listen to what I have to say and then maybe even do it.

P.S.

MySpace is the fucking devil, k?