4 years ago I spent 40 days and nights away from New York… and away from DJ.  Sure it wasn’t a recreational journey but rather a work one.  While I used that as justification to others and myself for the time away, it’s also true that I wasn’t required to spend that entire time away.  I had been offered a relief that I had turned down from a sense of duty to others, which at the time was greater than a sense of duty to my son.

Guilt often hangs over me about that time… time that was lost… not because of requirements but because of choice… decisions I consciously made when I thought I had more time.

It also makes me wonder… what decisions am I making today that I will look back upon and realize that I lost time that I will never get back…